Maybe

Maybe I’ve gone nuts
Maybe I talk too much
Maybe I couldn’t feel your fingers jammed into my side
Maybe I didn’t realize that time flew by
I refused to believe these thoughts that were breaking me
But maybe it was too late
Stepping gingerly over the pieces of a broken plate
Maybe it was my shadow silhouetted against the wall
Or maybe something different
That no one could see at all
I can hear the sink running
I can sense the enemy coming
Please shove me into a closet
I can’t be seen
Maybe the monster won’t even smell me
Unless I was bleeding
But that’s impossible because I’m not even breathing
The figure rolls past and disappears into the plate glass
It’s over.
Maybe I have gone nuts
But at least I know this
The fear is gone

The Knight

Colors in the sky
Tears in my eyes
The good little soldiers stand in line
One squeeze, they drop like flies
Colors bleeding into one
So bright, like the morning sun
Salt paints my cheeks
I forget how to speak
An abyss so dark it can swallow me whole
Trap me forever in a dank hole
I reach for an answer
Something to pull me out of this cancer
Maybe it could be him
My shining knight, my muse
I refuse to be a victim
Can’t let the dark in
The good little soldiers stand in line
It’s a relief they are still alive
One squeeze was all it took
My foundation shook
Did I hallucinate it all?
It seemed so real yet so small
My shining knight gives me a kiss
It brings me back to life
A world that I so missed
“A dream, just a bad dream”
My knight assures me gently
The good little soldiers in line applaud
I smile at them in awe
Together we leave that horrific place
My knight and I, two souls, one fate

Take Me To The Moon

One hand upon your face
Lean my head into your embrace
Gravity cannot hold me down
When you give me that knowing look
I open my heart to you like a book
Above the sky turns a dark gray
Doesn’t matter because it’s the beauty of your eyes that light my day
A curve so luscious and exotic
A kiss so sweet and pure
I press my forehead against yours
As we listen to the waves bathing the shore
Night comes and the gray fades
Together we look up at the stars
Where I begin to say
You take me to the moon
I can be my true self around you
I can walk on the clouds
And with these words I make a vow
Please be my world, please be my queen
Don’t explore this new journey without me
I will sing a soothing tune
While you take me to the moon
I dig my fingers into your crown
As you dangle me from the ground
We float up to a new level
Whenever were together
A future that promises a lifetime
A love that cannot be denied
It’s the luxury of the dark that grants us magic
The rhythm of your touch shoots through me like static
Above the sky turns a dark gray
Doesn’t matter because it’s the beauty of your eyes that light my day
I wrap myself in your arms
You feel my vibrating heart
Night comes and the gray fades
Together we look up to the stars
Where I begin to say
You take me to the moon
I can be my true self around you
I can walk on the clouds
And with these words I make a vow
Please be my world, please be my queen
Don’t explore this new journey without me
I will sing a soothing tune
While you take me to the moon
Is it too much too fast?
Will this really last?
Have I become one with you?
Is this fantasy true?
Are we in a fairytale?
No, it’s reality
Karma has brought finality
You take me to the moon
I can be my true self around you
I can walk on the clouds
And with these words I make a vow
Please be my world, please be my queen
Don’t explore this new journey without me
I will sing a soothing tune
While you take me to the moon

Images

Write your apologies down on a piece of paper
Then take a dive off a skyscraper
As you fall, life flashing before your eyes
You feel guilty over past crimes
And slowly you begin to see
That maybe these images aren’t what they seem to be
Hopelessly the world turns around us
Some will crumble, some will survive
But not I
Winds of change blow in with the breeze
Self destruction infecting like disease
These walls crack and spin
It’s with you that I can never win
The skyscraper stands above my head
Running, I dive off the very end
Together we fall, life flashing before our eyes
We feel guilty over taking our own lives
And slowly I begin to see
That maybe these images aren’t what they seem to be
Crash and burn, that’s what they say
You’ll never amount to anything
Not tomorrow and certainly not today
Over the years you started to believe
That there was really no point in trying
To be whom you wanted to be
Condemned to an existence of servitude
We slip into the mold of black and blue
Hopelessly the world turns around us
Some will crumble, some will survive
But not I
Winds of change blow in with the breeze
Self destruction infecting like disease
These walls crack and spin
It’s with you that I can never win
The skyscraper stands above my head
Running, I dive off the very end
Together we fall, life flashing before our eyes
We feel guilty over taking our own lives
And slowly I begin to see
That maybe these images aren’t what they seem to be
So sick of the insults
So sick of the screaming
So tired of cutting and so tired of being nothing
You and me, we have to break free
So let’s go to that skyscraper
And be who we need to be
Winds of change blow in with the breeze
We step to the edge and survey the scene
The world stands above our head
Running, we dive off the very end
Together we fall, life flashing before our eyes
We feel guilty over taking our own lives
And slowly I begin to see
That maybe these images ARE what they seem to be

Vile

Catch the blood on the tip of your tongue
Then sweep the rest under the rug
Cover the corpse in the corner
Then sit in a rocking chair pretending it’s over
Red stains the walls
It was her final curtain call
You snicker and twitch,
“Bye bye you silly bitch,”
Whispering like a raving lunatic
Your work here is done
Tick tock until the boys in blue come
She was a mother
She was a wife
A crazed one you are to take her life
You shall pay, you shall burn!
Until Death Row decides it’s your turn
The chair creaks as it moves
And you stare out at the harvest moon
A siren wails in the distance
You close your eyes and smile
Such a vile child
The front door is kicked in
You stand up to greet your guests
All the while, wearing that sinister grin
A remorseless call of the wild
Such a vile child

Pick Your Poison

Standing in a field of dreams
My soul overtaken
Standing by a river of green
My soul overtaken
Walking to a cabin at the end of the road
It’s not the lights that glow, or the moon that shows
It is my soul
Like a junkie fallen off a broken wagon
Or an alcoholic back on that one last binge
My personal demon pulling at my inner strings
There is trouble in that field of dreams
Broken heart and soul bleeding at the seams
And then the river of green turns black
After this, there is no going back
In my head is a voice
Saying life or death, make your choice
I cry for help and try to break the shell
Yet then I resist and withdraw into myself
So much easier to hate then love
Is that why I care so much?
My world rotates like a torsion
And then the voice says
Life or death, pick your poison
When I sleep I am restless
When I cough I am breathless
Throw me off the edge and watch me fall
I land on my feet and feel ten feet tall
My soul flies free over those fields of dreams
Because there I know nothing can touch me
Then reality sinks in, my positivity wearing thin
I’m back on that binge and the demon laughs as it twirls my strings
I’m so sorry for giving up
But what else is there to do?
Broken heart bleeds, my soul screams
There is trouble in that field of dreams
In my head is a voice
Saying life or death, make your choice
I cry for help and try to break the shell
Yet then I resist and withdraw into myself
So much easier to hate then love
Is that why I care so much?
My world rotates like a torsion
And then the voice says
Life or death, pick your poison
To live, bless the world with my gifts
To die, then it would only be me inside
The voice wants to become a symbol
And with given wings I will be nimble
Soaring over these fields of dreams
Knowing the greatness inside of me
Go away demon, go away
You don’t control my strings today
Life or death, pick your poison
I see the beauty on the horizon
The river is green, no more broken seams
So much easier to love than hate
The world opens it’s flood gates
This is my field of dreams